New York here I come…


So the journey finally begins for a week in New York. My birthday has been and gone and I’m all packed and actually ready early. Silly me though, my lock is too big for the hole in my zip on my case so last minute dash shortly to find a small lock! Otherwise all is well. 
My stomach has been hurting lots and I’ve felt quite sick the past few days, I can’t just put it down to being hungover now so think it must be nerves. My sleep hasn’t been great either. I know it’s going to be the best thing I’ve ever done but I’m still so nervous. My anxiety has come back slightly and this time around I know how to control it so I’ll control to be strong and control it and enjoy every second of the exciting adventure.

Wish me luck! I shall blog when I can. One of my friends bought me a cute notebook which has New York sights and writing all over for me to write everything down as I go along so that will be a book of memories I will put together too.



Stuck in the past

It’s been a little while. I genuinely was feeling happier and I don’t know what happened but I cannot shift my thoughts to the present and the future completely. I can’t get my ex out of my head and it’s the memories and fun times of everything we did together from concerts and just being silly to holidays and even the routine of coming home, having dinner, food shopping etc.

Things with M we’re going so well but he’s being so serious and won’t stop complimenting me when we are together. It’s too much and I don’t know what to do?! It’s my birthday on Monday and we have plans over the next few days but I’m not excited to see him right now.

My week in New York cannot come quick enough, I need the space and thinking time, I really do. But how can I move on?! I just don’t know what to do. Any advice?

I’m so excited to go away and for fun times in NYC even if nervous about travelling alone but only have a few days alone before meeting my friend I haven’t seen for 8 years! My out of office will be on in a day’s time 🙂 4 days til my bday and 6 days til nyc!

Will keep you all updated xxx