I finally plucked up the courage and went to see the doctor today to discuss my emotions and anxiety and I’m so glad I did in a way, as soon as I got there I started crying and apologising for crying. The doctor was lovely and she said she can see how affected I am at the moment and has prescribed my anti depressants and sleeping tablets and I’m on the waiting list for counselling. It made me quite sad someone confirming it all though and I’ve felt quite down today about it. I’ve told my best friend but that’s it. I feel I should let others know in case my mood affects any friendships etc but I hate opening up.
I’m going to start my medication tomorrow and sleeping tablets from Sunday night. I have to see the doctor again in 3 wks to see how it’s going with the meds.
The rest of the day wasn’t too bad as I was cleaning and getting ready for my date with L tonight. As my parents are still away it was the last time I’d have a free house so I bought prosecco and snacks and he was due over around 7ish. An hour before he text saying he had a family meal to go to. I kind of expected some excuse to come up but was hoping that was me being silly but nope. So here I am drinking prosecco and eating popcorn watching burlesque alone on a Friday night. I’m trying not to cry as I did all my makeup etc and don’t want to waste tears on another guy! I haven’t responded to his last message as I’m too angry.
Why is it that the guys I fall for mess me about but the guys who fall for me I’m not interested in?! It’s super frustrating!