The right fish must be out there somewhere…

I’m still relying on online dating to find me the right match. Do I have hope?…No. So why do I do it? I have no idea! It passes time and I don’t really meet guys any other way apart from a drunken kiss in a bar/club and them being a lot younger than me.

I attract some right weird people, in life and online too, my friends didn’t believe I receive so many odd messages online so I logged in and the first two were…

Seriously?! 99.99999% of the time I get boring ‘hey’ messages or weird messages like the above. Another example:

What is wrong with guys today?! No I do not want to sit on your face all day long, aside from that being uncomfortable for you I have things to do plus you’re just gross!

I’ve changed my age range I search in now to 29-35 (I’m now 30) as I know I need to stop finding younger guys, it always happens, I’d like to meet a hot mature guy who knows what he wants in life. Apparently that’s way too much to ask for and he doesn’t seem to exist but I have to have a tiny bit of hope right?! It’s not like I’m expecting to meet anyone now and I feel I have a guard up from dealing with arseholes, I just hope my turn to be happy with someone comes sometime soon…

Life is funny, it scares me as you don’t know what’s around the corner – good or bad – and it’s been a bumpy year. I thought it’d be my year but now I have to hope 2017 will be. My 30s will be my decade!


Looking forwards and smiling…

Looking forwards is tough but must be done to move on and be happy. Sorry for the radio silence lately. I’ve felt slightly happier which is obviously a positive thing for me after the tough year. 
With nyc planning, sunshine and a few dates with the guy I knew from school it’s been a good couple of weeks. I’m proud of myself for booking the trip and even though it’s scary as I’ll spend the first 2-3 days alone I think it’s going to be the best thing I’ve ever done in my life. And why not do it when I might not have another opportunity of solo travelling. I can’t wait to see my friend after 8 years too when I meet up with her for the last 4 days. Broadway, sightseeing, cocktails, shopping and fun times! 40 days… Countdown! Now the challenge to save up and hopefully I’ll get lots of dollars for my birthday to spend.

Dating-wise I’ve had 3 dates with M and it’s really nice. I’ve debated with myself whether I’m ready for a full blown relationship as I think it will end up going that way but feel I need to give it a go and fully move on. He’s so genuinely nice and honest which is so refreshing and we get on well and he gets on well with my dog. He’s invited me round to his Saturday daytime with my dog to chill so watch this space…

I’ve also gone from blonde to brunette really and have received lots of compliments from people at work and at home, new identity, new me, new life! 

Any tips on nyc solo travelling would be appreciated 🙂 xoxo



Weekend escapades and upcoming date

So I’ve given up on pro golfer, he’s been a bit weird too which confirmed my thoughts. Shame as we got along well over whatsapp but no point dwelling over it…

At the weekend I was out with a friend and a guy I’ve met fairly recently while out was messaging me and said he’d come to meet me when my friend left so I though why not, probably the vodka talking too as it gave me extra confidence! We met and partied the night away and drank the night away too. Somehow I ended up back at his (he lives with his parents so not ideal) and we were extra quiet. Some fun was had then I got a taxi home at 6am, eek! Getting home when the birds are tweeting away is not good lol. We’ve been texting every day since even though he’s abroad for work and he seems really nice, only thing is that he’s 5 years younger hmmm…

Keeping options open I’m meeting with the guy I’ve known since I was about 10, but wasn’t ever too close too, tomorrow. Pretty nervous as I feel there’s a bit more pressure and nerves when it’s someone you kind of know. I need to put those thoughts to the back of my head and just enjoy it though. I’ll provide an update soon! We’re going for a drink locally, hopefully won’t bump into anyone we know from school who will start Chinese whispers lol. Fingers crossed! I’m going to enjoy dating for now and not get hopes up and just see what happens. 


Date with Pro

So Pro will be his nickname as he’s a pro golfer.

We finally met, this is the guy I’ve been speaking to from pof for nearly 7 weeks now after spotting him on there within a few miles when I was enjoying a weekend away in Bournemouth. We decided to meet half way in Basingstoke for drinks and a meal and had spoken every day for the last 7 weeks so I felt nervous as I put a lot of hope into this. We got in great over whatsapp and I didn’t have any worry we wouldn’t get along.

We met in the car park then walked to a bar then went for tapas and had a walk and went home. The conversation was flowing, I felt I asked more questions but maybe that’s just a female thing anyways? A few things he did were a bit cringe and annoying but generally we got along. Something about him put me off though, the way he spoke was ok, I think he might have speech problems perhaps and be a bit simple. He told me he’s not very academic and he didn’t know how to pronounce simple words. It threw me a bit as didn’t expect it. I want to be with a man who knows how to be a man and protect you and does well for himself. I’m very ambitious and want someone similar who lots of hobbies. Pro only has golf as a hobby and doesn’t seem to do anything with friends so does he actually have friends? Also meeting half way was tiring enough so distance isn’t great. I haven’t told him how I’m feeling yet but know I have to, shame though as we’ve spoken every day and got to know eachother so I’m really annoyed we didn’t have the spark.

So back to online it is for me but I’m so put off when I receive odd messages like the one below, what is that about?!

I am messaging a couple of local guys, one I’ve known kind of since I was 10 and another I met on a night out so maybe I’ll just ate to meet up and see how things go or strike them off the list. I’ll just have to stay patient I suppose for now for my king in shining armour to show his face. Maybe I should stop being as fussy too?!


Dating update

So I’ve been talking to someone from Bournemouth for nearly 2 months now and we met on POF and then swapped numbers so mainly chat over whatsapp. I drunkenly called him last weekend and spoke to him too! Oops! Bad times on my part…

We’ve decided to meet up in Basingstoke next Wednesday evening for dinner. I’m so nervous and do have the feeling of what’s the point to be honest due to distance. He seems so lovely and we always have lots to chat about but being an hour and 45 minutes away when we both have fairly busy lives and he works some weekends could be difficult. I like the spontaneous ‘can I come round for a couple of hours’ messages etc and I know I won’t get that with him. But I feel I may be missing an opportunity if I don’t go as he could be the one I’m looking for, who knows…I think I will just go but can’t help the doubts which I’m sure everyone has and I’m sure nerves has a big part to play in my doubts too!

Also I matched with someone on Tinder that I knew from school but haven’t seen in about 10 years. He’s still local, we were never close at school but had mutual friends and grew up in the same village so I’ve known him probably since I was about 11. I always thought he was quite good looking so thought why not I’ll swipe right and then when I logged in last night there was a match and a message from him. He asked to meet up so I’m deciding whether that’s a good idea too at the moment.

There are options out there but I’m just not overly thrilled for some reason. Perhaps it’s because I need to learn to love myself first like the picture says as that is something I struggle with. How can I do that though?! Maybe booking a holiday to nyc to visit friends will be a first step to taking time out and spending a couple of days on my own exploring a new city and a new me and working out who that is and then staying with friends for a few days to reconnect and discuss the old times.